Okay, why doesn't anyone ever tell you all the things you have to give up just by realizing you are pregnant? I'm not talking about alcohol or smoking, I mean the normal everyday things that you enjoy on a daily or weekly basis, such as chocolate. I know I spend a lot of time whining about being pregnant but I have found that this is one time that I can whine with being called a whiny-baby so I'm taking it.
But back to my point, no one told me that mint could or in my case does lead to vomiting and added nausea. I love peppermint! Now I can't even chew mint flavor gum without throwing my stomach into fits. I miss soda and sweet tea. While you can actually have about a cup of coffee daily without any problems, I have really tried to cut my caffeine consumption to nothing. I do make de-caf sweet tea at home but it's difficult to find de-caf soda or tea in the real world, outside of Lemon/lime soda, which I have already stated piss Bud off since Bud hates lime.
Lots of other things I've had to give up come mostly from being me and being pregnant. Things like fried chicken and limes are not a general pregnancy thing but a Martha pregnancy thing. Not that that makes them suck less but at least other woman can take heart in knowing that they won't have to suffer with those food aversions, they will have their own.
I think the part that I find most upsetting is the feeling that everything is changing. Yes, I knew that things would change for me but every woman in my family got to have carefree pregnancies but I get to suffer. Just doesn't seem fair. I was watching ABC the other day and they were running a special on teen pregnancy and this 16-year-old girl was crying and saying, "It's just not fair. Everything is changing for me and nothing is changing for him!" I laughed at first but now I kinda understand. I watch Ray eat fried chicken and wish I could enjoy one with bite but it's just not worth the vomit fest that would follow. What has he had to give up? Ray is a good man and I know his life is changing too but all I want is to enjoy my two boxes of Thin-mints! Truly, life is not fair.
Tuesday, July 14, 2009
Thursday, July 9, 2009
Emergency Trip #1
Well on Tuesday, we made an emergency doctor run. It turned out to be nothing but nothing will put the fear of God in you quite like thinking you might be losing your baby or that something could be wrong with your baby. While I had fear that something was wrong, I also felt strangely calm so I was pretty sure that everything would be ok.
On Tuesday while at work I had pink discharge. Not a bad sign on it's own but my back was and is hurting and was hurting very badly on Tuesday, which could indict a UTI. So down to Eden we ran! I think Ray was more freaked out then me. He tends to panic. I am usually at my best in a crisis. My head gets very clear. I freak out well after everything is done. It wasn't until yesterday that i cried about the whole thing. I think my brain shuts the emotions out so that I can just get done what needs to get done. I guess that's a good thing. I have had many chances to manage a crisis and I image that having a newborn will lead to many mini-crisis moments. But I hope this is not the beginning of a difficult pregnancy. I like to stay busy. I hate to sit all day. I know that I need to take it easy but that is so hard to do!
On Tuesday while at work I had pink discharge. Not a bad sign on it's own but my back was and is hurting and was hurting very badly on Tuesday, which could indict a UTI. So down to Eden we ran! I think Ray was more freaked out then me. He tends to panic. I am usually at my best in a crisis. My head gets very clear. I freak out well after everything is done. It wasn't until yesterday that i cried about the whole thing. I think my brain shuts the emotions out so that I can just get done what needs to get done. I guess that's a good thing. I have had many chances to manage a crisis and I image that having a newborn will lead to many mini-crisis moments. But I hope this is not the beginning of a difficult pregnancy. I like to stay busy. I hate to sit all day. I know that I need to take it easy but that is so hard to do!
Sunday, July 5, 2009
Family
I was recently speaking to a friend about his grandmother. She has been on a steady decline and they expect she'll pass any day now. But this really got me thinking about my own grandmother, who died in 1997. She lived in Mexico but we saw her usually twice a year at the least. My parents always worked hard to make sure we didn't lose our connection to Mexico and to the family there. Now I find myself in a similar situation. How do I make sure that Bud knows his/her family?
Since moving to Virginia, we have made a few trips back to Texas. I know the situation is a little different. Mexico was an eight or so hour drive and Texas is an 18-24 hour drive depending on the traffic. But I still wonder how will Ray and I ensure that Bud knows the rest of the family. I guess the easy solution would be to move back or at least move closer but we are happy here. I think Ray and I have finally found our place in the community and we feel like we have support enough to raise a child. If we moved now we would have to start that process all over again. I know our parents would love to see us move back. Maybe someday we will but for now we're staying put. So how do we raise our child to know about the family when we have no family around?
Since moving to Virginia, we have made a few trips back to Texas. I know the situation is a little different. Mexico was an eight or so hour drive and Texas is an 18-24 hour drive depending on the traffic. But I still wonder how will Ray and I ensure that Bud knows the rest of the family. I guess the easy solution would be to move back or at least move closer but we are happy here. I think Ray and I have finally found our place in the community and we feel like we have support enough to raise a child. If we moved now we would have to start that process all over again. I know our parents would love to see us move back. Maybe someday we will but for now we're staying put. So how do we raise our child to know about the family when we have no family around?
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