Embarrassing times in red underwear

Embarrassing is such a hard emotion for me.  Usually embarrassment turns to shame pretty quickly but on Tuesday I actually dared greatly and reached out before it took an ugly turn. 

This is the facebook message I sent to my band mates:

Okay have to share an embarrassing story with you girls. I decided to wear a dress today and on my way to my office I did not know that my backpack would cause my dress to ride up in the back. I was almost at my building when I felt a cool breeze. Yes my ass was all out Good thing I was wearing my red Charlotte set! So I guess I was advertising for Golden Pear.

Yes ladies and the random dude looking for boob pics, I walked in front of the library with my red panties showing, like my ass was all out.  So why tell you good readers this?  I love the work of Dr. Brene Brown and after rewatching some of her Oprah's Lifeclass on Sunday, I am working to dare greatly and identify shame in my life.  

One of the lessons from Dr. Brene Brown is that shame cannot survive being spoken.  If I had told no one then I would have turned that into a shame spiral for myself.  It would have gone from me calling myself stupid for wearing a dress in the first place to body shame to the effect of no one noticed because no one would want to look at your fat ass.  See shame is an ugly thing but rather than sink into the hole of shame, I did what Dr. Brown said and I reached out.  I called my husband and told him.  He made me see the funny side of it.  Then I sent a message to my girls from Red Shoe P&*%.  No one told me I was fat or ugly or how awful or how they would have died on the spot.  Everyone helped me see the funny aspect and the great opportunity for selling underwear and the punk lifestyle I had created for myself.  

Yes it was embarrassing.  It still is embarrassing.  There is no telling what you will think or how you will want to shame me but I hope this helps someone else reach out too.  It is amazing how many people have had experiences similar to those we go through and they wish they had someone to talk to too.  There is an old saying that says there is nothing new under the sun.  If that is true then someone else on this planet is or has gone through something similar to us and we all want to be able to connect and share with someone.  There is no reason to carry shame with us.  Share your story.  

AD TIME:
I was wearing this set which is available at Golden Pear or your local Parfait by Affinitas store. (Hey why not sell some set for my girl at Golden Pear :) )

Creative Post: The Scholar-Practitioner as a Moral Being

I posted a music video that I created for Max Reynolds and his wonderful song Draw the line a few weeks back.  The whole video was inspired by a project I have due for one of my doctorate classes.  The project is the poetic of leadership.  Here is the 10 min extravaganza!

Wordless Wednesday: The Shiz

Thank you to Sarah from Harbuck & Co for this wonderful family picture of us with The Shiz.  The Shiz was the opening to the Hidden Village Music Festival and they rocked it out!  So maybe not so wordless :)

Mamavation Monday: Trying to garden in a bag

I have a black thumb.  Like seriously black.  I once tried to plant blackberry bushes and just about killed them or outright killed them, I don't remember anymore.  One week after I abandoned them to the great gardener in the sky, the stupid bushes came back to life and started growing!  I'm the sort of person should not have plants.

Now that I have Ravebaby, I am determined to try and grow things with her.  As a homeschooling mother, I feel like I need to expose her to a little bit of everything and growing stuff should be part of a well rounded education.  So what is a homeschooling mother with a black thumb to do?

The answer came via my Facebook timeline, garden in a bag!  I want to say that my fellow Mamavation Sista over at Just Joanna is the one who posted about this great idea but I don't really remember now.  The basic idea is you buy some prestarted plants and a bag of potting soil.  Next you poke holes in the bottom of the bag, turn over, and cut a square out of the top and plant your stuff in the dirt.  No digging up the ground and that means no scars in yard if I manage to kill everything again.

Ravebaby and I have planted cilantro, red bell peppers, and zucchini, which I bought at my locally owned feed store.  I placed my bag of Miracle Gro potting soil on an old palette to keep it off the ground and we're ready to see how we do.  If I manage to keep these alive for a while then we'll go out and plant more stuff in this manner.  The only thing I wish I had done differently was to have looked for and purchases an organic potting mix.  The Miracle Gro's chemically smell turned my stomach a bit and lingered in the car for way too long.  So here's to a garden in a bag!

Starting this Saturday: Hidden Village Music Festival 2014

 

It's almost here!  This Saturday!  Here is the line-up:

 Day 1: The Shiz (alt blues rock)
Day 2: Arborea (world music)
Day 3: Howlin' Brothers (alt bluegrass)
Day 4: The Farewell Drifters (americana)
Day 5: Christopher Paul Stelling (troubadour)
Day 6: The Sawmill Vagrants (old time folk music)
Day 7: Danielle Grubb (experimental jazz rock)
Day 8: Social Bliss (punk rock) & Terra Alive + Otonana TRIO (japanese rock and roll)
Day 9: Joe Fletcher & the Wrong Reasons (just joe this time) + Friendly People (folk infused indie rock awesome)
Day 10: Engine (folk rock)

This festival has something for everyone, $5 at the door, $30 for a 10 day pass!!! 

For more information: www.hiddenvillagemusic.com 
 

Disclaimer: I am the official blogger for the Hidden Village Music Festival 2014 mainly because DH has an ownership stake in Standpipe Coffeehouse.  So I can name myself official blogger and who will fight me on it? 

Draw the Line

This song says so much about me, my friends, and why we feel the things we do and the way we do them are important. It's great work from an unsung master of Punk Rock, and I figured it was high time it had a video.

#Mamavation Monday: Wheat is now my enemy

So the saga of wheat in New Orleans ends with me being super sick and swearing wheat off for life, like forever.

After my last Mamavation post, I went to the doctor and got some bad health news.  My blood sugar was 120 after a 12-hours fast.  That is so not good, like a few more points and I would have been pre- diabetic.  My blood pressure was up.  My weight was up 5 lbs!  In general my usually healthy wheat-free self was trying to cleanse itself and as a result I was going through the wringer.

One comment I did not expect to hear was that I was gluten intolerant.  Now before you jump, I went wheat-free for my daughter. I was nursing and when I ate wheat she broke out.  I never when wheat-free for myself or even for DH who also has a wheat allergy.  Why was this shocking?  Well I think in the back of my mind I was thought of being wheat free as an optional piece of my life.  I could go back to eating like a "normal" person at some point.  This experience has taught me that is not the case.  I need to not only be wheat free but gluten free; I wasn't expecting that.  How did we go from a household with two wheat allergy sufferers to where everyone has some wheat issue?

I am finally feeling better.  I had some tests run today and I'm waiting for results.  I suspect my blood sugar is back to normal.  My blood pressure is back to normal.  I've lost all 5lbs.  My thirst is back to normal and my energy level is returning.  Lesson learned, stay away from wheat!