One of things I'm learning about motherhood is that it can be very isolating. If your friends are living the sex and city life then they don't really have time for talks on birthing/breastfeeding/or baby poop. I don't blame them one bit. But I am also finding that I can find new moms to connect with too. I have about 5 blogs I read faithfully. They are blogs from moms that are just doing the best they can and sharing their experiences along the way. I had also found a wonderful group in Greensboro called Triad Tot Toters that was amazing but now that we living in Texas, I'm back to being by myself again. :(
This weekend I was finally able to go see my bestest friends in the whole world. One has been my BFF since 7th grade, so like almost 20 years! The other has been a BFF since college so only about 10 years. They finally got to meet Audrey and Miss Audrey of course charmed them. It was fun to talk to the girls about their lives, see their new homes, share how my life has changed in the time since I saw them last. We laughted, we cried, we shared and we made promises to see each other real soon. I can't wait to see them again.
I miss having people I can just go out with. I think you can see a theme for me, loniness. I wish the girls lived closer, they are both still about 5 hours away. I take a weekend and go down there but I still wish I could just show up and go and have a fun girls night and then sleep in my own bed. Just plan a last minute nail appointment or something simple like just picking them up and head to the movies.
Does that life even exist for me anymore? Now I have to make sure that someone can watch Audrey. No more just running off. While I miss the girlfriends, I think my trade off for Audrey has been worth it. Maybe I can't just jet off to Paris but to be honest I never did before so why would I now? I think I really need to just get a new cell phone with unlimited text and email so my girls and I can keep in better contact. We have all gotten so busy we can't even find time to talk. But I think the occasional, "You're awesome" text might be kinda nice.