My daughter started school today. My daughter, the daughter of a homeschool/unschooling researcher, started school today. I’ve spent the better part of the day crying. I didn’t want to let her go but I know it is the right decision. I’m afraid this makes me a fraud of a researcher and yet I can’t not send her to school. I’m going to the principal of a school and my daughter should be attending that school. I can’t sell my school as a wonderful place for children but not good enough for my child. I can’t live a dual life so where does my love of homeschooling fit into all of this. I believe in homeschooling. Not every child belongs in school. Not every child is successful working in a curriculum.
Today I am discovering a new self. I am shedding the skin of a homeschool mom. I feel raw. I feel everything and I know that while I am doing the right thing I am allowed to question it. This was not my plan. Why do I make plans? Life is what happens when you are busy making plans. Yes John Lennon, life just bitch slapped me.