On Wednesday, I went out of my weekly mid-day run. I try to get a mile of at least walking each day and twice a week, I try to get in a run of about 30 mins or so. I was so excited to have a pretty day and coverage for the library so I went out with a happy heart. I guess a happy heart translates to moving with a bit more speed because Nike+ called me at 11:51/mile at .25 miles. Then my watch also made some noise about being at less than 12 min per mile and then disaster. My mind said, "Shit that has to be wrong. I must have the wrong setting again." I stopped my run. I quit the run in the app at .41 miles with a sub12min/mile pace. I double checked all of my settings and they were right. Outdoor, check. Distance: 3.1 miles, check. Was my time really sub-12 on an outdoor run?
I restarted my run and off I went. I was proud of myself for double-checking my settings and trying to get it right. Then at my first .25 miles, Nike+ again called sub-12. SHIT!!!!!!!!!!! I had really been running a sub-12. I was actually doing it!? Then I lost all my will to run. I had cheated myself. Because I didn't believe that I could run at sub-12, I didn't. Simply put, I didn't run because I didn't believe in me. I did finish the run. You can totally see on the picture that my pace was less than stellar: 13:36/mile. I finished. I started a 2nd time and I finished. So actually I got 3.5 miles so it wasn't a total loss.
I have been running somewhere between 5-10 miles each week pretty consistently for about 3-4 months. I don't run fast. I don't need to qualify for the Boston marathon to call myself a runner. I just move. That being said, I do want to get faster. Sub-12 minute outdoor miles are this year's goal for me. I was there and I totally let it slip away.
Self-sabotage! I don't have anyone else to blame. No excuses to make. I didn't believe in me so I quit. Lesson learned. I am better, stronger, greater than I think I am. My mind will quit long before my body.
I restarted my run and off I went. I was proud of myself for double-checking my settings and trying to get it right. Then at my first .25 miles, Nike+ again called sub-12. SHIT!!!!!!!!!!! I had really been running a sub-12. I was actually doing it!? Then I lost all my will to run. I had cheated myself. Because I didn't believe that I could run at sub-12, I didn't. Simply put, I didn't run because I didn't believe in me. I did finish the run. You can totally see on the picture that my pace was less than stellar: 13:36/mile. I finished. I started a 2nd time and I finished. So actually I got 3.5 miles so it wasn't a total loss.
I have been running somewhere between 5-10 miles each week pretty consistently for about 3-4 months. I don't run fast. I don't need to qualify for the Boston marathon to call myself a runner. I just move. That being said, I do want to get faster. Sub-12 minute outdoor miles are this year's goal for me. I was there and I totally let it slip away.
Self-sabotage! I don't have anyone else to blame. No excuses to make. I didn't believe in me so I quit. Lesson learned. I am better, stronger, greater than I think I am. My mind will quit long before my body.
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