Morning sickness again

Okay, I think the reality of situation is starting to set in. I have morning sickness again. I thought the food thing was the problem. If I just eat more often then I'll be fine. It worked for about a week. I was dry heaving just in the mornings until I got some food in me but that is no longer the situation. Now I have the dry heaves and nausea more or less all day! I hate the nausea.
I think it's much worse now than in the first trimester. Now I have heartburn and indigestion along with the nausea. I have to eat because the baby needs food but I don't want to eat because I'm afraid I'll hurl.
Today I had a scary moment and it also help me see that my students do actually care. I was sitting at the circulation desk and suddenly felt the need to hurl. I thought I was managing to hide it but that was not the case. One of my students looked at me and said, "Mrs. Coleman are you alright?" They covered the desk while I ran to get food and despite the feeling that I need to hurl, I was actually alright. I felt sick for a few minutes but otherwise I was fine.
Pregnancy is so much harder than I thought it would be. I never knew that nausea was so hard on the body. I hate the sudden heaving and overwhelming need to eat all at the same time! Maybe I'm just a wimp.

Bud wants food

Okay by far the hardest part of being pregnant is the required eating. I have to eat every four hours or so. If I don't I start to dry heave. Today was a big reminder that eating is a must. I was walking down the stairs and I started to heave. I ate some lunch and felt so much better. Then I was planning on skipping my afternoon snack and then I started to heave.
I'm not a snacker. I don't like to eat outside of my three square meals so this is a huge change for me. I must eat for the baby. It's really strange having to eat around the clock. I think the hardest thing is the eating in the middle of the night. I wake up in the middle of the night and eat. I can't believe how much eating I have to do. I wonder how much weight I've gained?

We have a midwife

I think last night was some of the best sleep both Ray and I have gotten. I don't think we realized how much the issue of finding a midwife was really weighting on us.
I think you have to let the Lord lead you and you will be given exactly what you need. We were led to Debbie. We meet with and talked to Debbie for over an hour yesterday. She is exactly what we were looking for, a comforting presence and an experienced midwife. She told us of the most common complications she has seen and what she has done to handle the situation. She has a very nurturing aura and I think with her help I can bring Baby Bud into the world in the comfort of my own home.
We have our first prenatal exam with her next week. So I'll be being seen by my Ob/Gyn and Debbie. I don't think you can really have too much prenatal care and we think that if the worst does happen and we have to transfer (and have time) then we'll already have a relationship with the hospital.
It's hard to believe that I'm at 27 weeks! Baby Bud is moving and kicking around like crazy. It is fun to call Ray over and have him lay his hands on the baby and feel the movements. I'm surprised by how strong the kicks feel. The heartburn isn't fun but it's a small price to pay. Strangely the part I'm really struggling with is eating. I'm not really hungry and it's hard to force myself to eat. I think eating breakfast and eating in the middle of the night are the hardest. I'm not a snacker normally so the this whole eat every few hours is tough!