Almost there (the room anyways)

Well, Baby Bud's room is almost ready. If we can get some good weather then we'll be able to stain and seal the floor and then time to move stuff in. Now that the room is Bud's color, it feels more real. Like we are really making room for Bud in our lives.
I know that Bud keeps me up at night and makes sure that I eat on schedule. You would think my frequent trips to the bathroom and the ever present wrist splints would make Bud real but it's still hard to think of Bud outside of me. What will Bud look like? Is Bud a boy or a girl? So many questions and now only like 6 weeks. Time is really flying!
yesterday Ray and I attended a breastfeeding class at Morehead. Ray was the only man there. I was glad he was there. After taking some notes my hand went numb so he took notes for me. I don't I realized how nervous I was about breastfeeding. I think my nervousness is really about the returning back to work aspect. I want to breastfeed for at least 2 years but with me returning back to work after just 6 weeks, I'm not confident that I can keep it going.

Bud's schedule

So I am beginning to notice that Baby Bud has a schedule. Up around 6am (just like me), ready for lunch around 11:30, snack time: 3:30 or so, dinner is around 6:00 and then party time is 10:30 (just like Ray). I'm sure there are other time that Bud is active but maybe I'm just too busy to notice. I do wonder if the pattern will continue once Bud is out of the womb? I don't want to see Bud mix up the day and night. Ray is still mixed-up and he's 30!
Ray and I have come to the gender crossroads. He thinks Bud is a girl. I'm still convinced that Bud is a boy. I know a lot of people have been irritated that we didn't go ahead and find out the sex of Baby Bud but now the whole surprise thing is especially fun. We can debate and people chime in. We read old wives' tales. It's just fun to wonder. I mean right now Bud can be anything. I don't have an image of Bud boy as a lawyer or Bud girl as a pilot; Bud is still very abstract. Who and what Bud will become is a total mystery. With about 7 weeks to go I am getting more and more excited about meeting Bud and discovering who this little baby is!

the shower

Yesterday my friends from work held a baby shower for me. It was so much fun! I don't like being the center of attention but opening presents was fun. I didn't get a chance to talk to everybody, which made me feel kinda bad. I wanted a chance to thank people for showing up but since it was right after school we have lots of teachers just running thur and going back to meet with students and parents. One of my friends from my first VA job made it up for the shower. I was super excited to see her. It just seems like I'm so busy and don't get a chance to keep up with people! I don't think that will change once the baby comes but I'll dream anyway. I am not looking forward to writing the thank you notes. I'm not use to thank you notes, not a very Mexican thing to do, and with carpal tunnel writing is going to be fun! I wonder what I should do for the wonderful people who threw the shower for me? A thank you note just doesn't seem like enough!