Thursday, December 9, 2010

Christmas do over

So we are coming up on Audrey's first birthday, which is 7 days before Christmas. So this won't be her first Christmas. But I want a do-over! Her first Christmas was spent running from the NICU to the local hospital. It should have been fun and full of love not spent under a bili-light! We were unhappy last Christmas. We had a beautiful baby girl and had a wonderful homebirth only to end up in the hospital anyways! To make matters worse, we had lost our heat when after Audrey's birth out boiler caught fire. Audrey was the only reason we got out of the house. She was less than a day old and she saved us!

But back to Christmas, there aren't any baby's second Christmas shirts and cute outfits to celebrate the happiness around bring with our family for the first time in like 5 years. I don't think Audrey will remember this Christmas either but I know I will. I'll get to hold my baby while celebrating Christmas with my mom and dad and the in-laws. It won't be her first and maybe won't be her bestest ever but I can't wait to open presents with her on Christmas day.

Thursday, December 2, 2010

Wordless Wednesday - stinky face

Sunday, November 28, 2010

I'm a bad mom and just little late to the crunch party

Okay so the bad mom thing.  Tuesday I took Audrey to the doctor.  I had to run to pick her up and then run to doctor's office.  There was no time for lunch.  After a good doctor's visit (I think we have finally found a decent doctor!), I was starving and needed to return to work so I decided to eat on the run.  It is almost impossible to eat on the run and be wheat-free.  I broke down and bought a hamburger.  To be very honest it was so good!  I have missed bread and sandwich items the most.  Audrey did okay that night.  Her eczema did flare up but no screaming!  I got lucky and then I got stupid. 

My mom made homemade flour tortillas on Friday.  It had been like 4 years since I had had my mom's tortillas!  I had to have one.  What could one little tortilla do?  God did I pay for that tortilla.  I let Audrey have a bite, literally one baby bite, of a tortilla and ate the rest.  Audrey was a bit sluggish that day but nothing too extreme but that night.  DH and I put Audrey to bed but as DH rocked her Audrey began to scream.  She was asleep but would suddenly scream.  My poor baby was in pain from the wheat.  I had honestly forgotten just how bad the allergy reaction is.  Once Audrey was finally able to rest, DH had to hold me while I cried.  I am a bad mom.  I know the allergy is there and I know that I have to be wheat-free but I ate it anyways.  She was in pain because of me.  That is the definition of a bad mom.

On another topic, I finally made and am using cloth wipes!  I found a great deal on french terry cloth at Hobby Lobby, 50% off!  So I bought 2 yards and cut my wipes out, so far I have made 26 and still have 8 more to make.  They are 6X9 with the wrong sides sewn together.  They were super easy to make and I found a great site for wipe solutions and mixed up a batch of Lavender 'n' Tea Tree.  For once Audrey isn't running from the changing table.  We are using them to clean her face too.  So far so good!  I'll keep you posted.