I just got a haircut. It had been a good 5 months since my last haircut. Strangely, I felt a bit guilty taking the time to do it. Like, I shouldn't be in a stylist chair but next to my DH watching Audrey play. I have to get over it. Audrey is getting to be more independent. I'm not sure I'm ready for that. She has never been a high needs baby but we do love to be together. I work full-time; I"m away all day 5 days a week. I need to spend time with my child but at the same time I need to spend time with myself and with DH. How do moms with more than 1 kid do it!?
I have been talking with DH about stepping back in my career once he finishes his Masters. We want to homeschool and I want to spend time with Audrey without the pressure of work. I want to be a mom. DH points out that I have never been good at taking time off. I have to have my time filled up. He thinks staying at home would be the death of me. Maybe he's right. Can I be happy just being a mom? But would I just be a mom? I want to step up my commitment to LLL. I want to teach my daughter. I want to work more on my blog. Oh yeah and have more kids. I think my day would be full. I also want to go back to college and take some classes but that is a back-burner kind of thing.
We'll see what happens. Right now, I'm trying to balance what I have.