Well I've been feeling Baby Bud move! It was a little confusing at first. I first felt the movement about a week ago. It felt like three quick knocks. Since then I was thought Bud was just resting but I had noticed a lot of gas bubbles, well basically I'm stupid. I had read in my baby books that the baby's movements can feel like butterflies or gas bubbles. Well my dumb self just realized Friday that maybe it wasn't gas but in fact Baby Bud. Since then I've been paying attention and realized that it is baby movement!
It feels so strange! Ray asked me what it feels like and the best way to describe it is like something scratching me on the inside. It doesn't hurt, yet. Just feels like butterflies. We go to the doctor on Friday and have another ultrasound! I can't wait but I do hope that the technician won't spill the beans on Bud's gender.
I also had my first baby shower today! I really had fun! I had been missing my friends and today we got to hang out and talk with Robyn, who is going to get married on Saturday. Talking with Robyn reminded me of when I was getting married. It doesn't seem like that long ago but come December it will be 8 years! It was nice to reflect on the beginning of my marriage now that Ray and I are on the verge of parenthood. I have to admit I never thought it would take 8 years for us to have a baby of our own but as usually, if you trust in God you will always be given what you need if not always what you want.
Sunday, August 16, 2009
Monday, August 10, 2009
Second hand stuff
Well i asked my mom for advice yesterday on what should be on my gift registry and I got a long lecture on not getting things second-hand. I'm not the sort of person that asks people for things. I hate the idea of the gift registry. It feels like begging! But I know that when you have a baby you need all the help you can get and besides people want to help. I know that I always want to buy at least something small for people when they are having their first baby, anything after that is begging!
My mom offered to buy us the crib since that is what she has bought for all of the other of her grandchildren. I said thank you and buy whatever you want. I don't like to tell people what to get me. It is rude to demand and cribs aren't cheap. But my mom has good taste, better than me, so I want her to have the liberty to buy for her grandchild whatever she wants. I casually said that she could buy me something second-hand if she found something she liked. Then she went into the tirade about buying things at Goodwill and swamp-meets. Okay, I do understand her point, which was that you can't always clean things well and you do not know what kind of house the stuff has come from. This is a good point. I don't want something from a smoking house and if the baby was sickly I probably shouldn't use that with my own child. She did say that I need to know where stuff is coming from if I getting second-hand. Don't risk you baby just to save money. I guess my mommy does have a point but I will be taking second-hand stuff from friends so anyone trying to get rid of stuff just hand it over here!
My mom offered to buy us the crib since that is what she has bought for all of the other of her grandchildren. I said thank you and buy whatever you want. I don't like to tell people what to get me. It is rude to demand and cribs aren't cheap. But my mom has good taste, better than me, so I want her to have the liberty to buy for her grandchild whatever she wants. I casually said that she could buy me something second-hand if she found something she liked. Then she went into the tirade about buying things at Goodwill and swamp-meets. Okay, I do understand her point, which was that you can't always clean things well and you do not know what kind of house the stuff has come from. This is a good point. I don't want something from a smoking house and if the baby was sickly I probably shouldn't use that with my own child. She did say that I need to know where stuff is coming from if I getting second-hand. Don't risk you baby just to save money. I guess my mommy does have a point but I will be taking second-hand stuff from friends so anyone trying to get rid of stuff just hand it over here!
Friday, August 7, 2009
Feeling out of sorts
I think that is the best way to put it. I just feel out of sorts. I feel like I don't know myself anymore not that I have a baby growing inside of me.
I can't eat what I want or drink what I want. I have to think about Bud. I can't sit for too long, stand for too long or lay down on my back or stomach. I have to think about Bud. I have pain in my back and pelvis but I'm afraid to take anything. I have to think about Bud.
Bud is just about the only thing on my mind. I wonder if all first-time moms feel that way. It's hard enough to take care of me but it's not just me anymore. I feel like a stranger in my own body. I don't have anything to wear but I can't seem to find anything to buy. I want to feel sexy and confident like I did before Bud.
I think the strangest part is for all of the anxiety that I feel about being pregnant, I'm most afraid I'll wake up tomorrow to find out it was all a dream. That Bud was all in my head and I'm still in the middle of a struggling to get pregnant.
I'm a ball of hormones. I don't think I ever expected that pregnancy would be this hard. I guess I just didn't know what to expect.
I can't eat what I want or drink what I want. I have to think about Bud. I can't sit for too long, stand for too long or lay down on my back or stomach. I have to think about Bud. I have pain in my back and pelvis but I'm afraid to take anything. I have to think about Bud.
Bud is just about the only thing on my mind. I wonder if all first-time moms feel that way. It's hard enough to take care of me but it's not just me anymore. I feel like a stranger in my own body. I don't have anything to wear but I can't seem to find anything to buy. I want to feel sexy and confident like I did before Bud.
I think the strangest part is for all of the anxiety that I feel about being pregnant, I'm most afraid I'll wake up tomorrow to find out it was all a dream. That Bud was all in my head and I'm still in the middle of a struggling to get pregnant.
I'm a ball of hormones. I don't think I ever expected that pregnancy would be this hard. I guess I just didn't know what to expect.
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