Today was my Week 9 Day 1 run of Couch to 5K. I really can't believe that I have made it this far. Would had though I would have gotten hurt or just plain old derailed by life. I remember the first day of C25k, I woke up at 7 am and told DH I was tried of excuses and went and ran. Now 9 weeks later and I worried that once I don't have my little app telling me to run that I'm just going to back to sitting on my ass. I have really enjoyed the challenge. I've liked pushing myself.
9 weeks ago I felt fat. I felt uncomfortable in my own skin. I felt trapped in a life that seemed to be happening to me. Now I feel like I am happy. I am beautiful. I am confident. I have the nest job ever which is being a full-time stay at home mom. What a difference 9 weeks can make.
Running has really made me feel like my old self. The attitude adjustment has been from top to bottom. I'm just plain ol' happy!
So today's run I was inside, which I normally hate but it was just too hot and there was too much pollen in the air. I hate the indoor running because it feels easier than running outside. I also have no clue how far I actually run. I was worried that a 30 min run would be too much. I just was't confident that I could do it. I need to have more faith in myself. I was trying to psych myself up for what I thought was the last 5 mins when the app called time. I was so proud of me. I ran and felt like the 30 mins actually not 30 mins. I was really shocked that I ran and didn't die before the 30 was up. How far did I really run? I have no clue. I hope I can run outside on Thursday so I can get an idea of how close to 5k I actually am. I am a runner, again. After a 15 year break, I have my eye on a race for May 19th, just one week before my 33rd birthday. I can do it. I will do it. I'm almost there.
Wednesday, April 25, 2012
Week 9 - C25k
Friday, April 20, 2012
Big girl bed
Ravebaby is a co-sleeping baby. With the exception of two nights, both NICU nights, she has slept next to me. Even in the hospital stay during her UTI thing she slept with me in the hospital bed. About 2 months ago I ended the side-car and moved the crib into toddler bed position across the room. Ravebaby's been playing in the bed. Jasmin (dog) has been taking naps in the bed; that's been a fun training exercise.
I have placed Ravebaby in the bed for a couple of naps but nothing consistent. Tuesday I decided to put Ravebaby in her bed after she fell asleep. It was a strange experience for me. I was thinking about it while I put her to sleep in the mei tai. Once she was out I made the decision to put her in her bed. At first I okay and so was she. I sat down on the bed, grabbed the computer and then I burst into tears! I mean I just cried. So wasn't the reaction I expected from myself. I ran to DH who was on his computer in the other room and just sobbed into his shoulder. Seriously, I was crying.
DH took me back to the bedroom and reminded me that this was a big step that Ravebaby needed and we needed too. He's right. He's been wanting to move her out of our bed and depending on the night, I have too. Ravebaby is not totally night weaned so I've been resisting but I heard several moms mention putting their child in a toddler bed in the room and letting the kid come back into the big bed at the first night nursing. So I went for it. Ravebaby stayed in her bed for 2 hours then woke up and walked over to our bed and went right to sleep again. I watched her like a hawk while she was in her bed. It worked well. No crying barely any waking.
So I'm going to keep trying put Ravebaby in her own bed. The last two nights it's only been for an hour. She tends to move around a lot and once she feels her leg hanging off the edge of her bed she wakes up and moves to our bed. Last night was hard since she fell asleep in our bed. I did let her get into a deep sleep before I picked her up and moved her. Again she was only in her bed for an hour but we'll get their.
I have to admit I like having the bed adults only even if it is just for an hour. I'm not ready to push for her to totally night wean or push her to sleep in her own bed all night but we are both taking baby steps. She is growing up so quickly.
I have placed Ravebaby in the bed for a couple of naps but nothing consistent. Tuesday I decided to put Ravebaby in her bed after she fell asleep. It was a strange experience for me. I was thinking about it while I put her to sleep in the mei tai. Once she was out I made the decision to put her in her bed. At first I okay and so was she. I sat down on the bed, grabbed the computer and then I burst into tears! I mean I just cried. So wasn't the reaction I expected from myself. I ran to DH who was on his computer in the other room and just sobbed into his shoulder. Seriously, I was crying.
DH took me back to the bedroom and reminded me that this was a big step that Ravebaby needed and we needed too. He's right. He's been wanting to move her out of our bed and depending on the night, I have too. Ravebaby is not totally night weaned so I've been resisting but I heard several moms mention putting their child in a toddler bed in the room and letting the kid come back into the big bed at the first night nursing. So I went for it. Ravebaby stayed in her bed for 2 hours then woke up and walked over to our bed and went right to sleep again. I watched her like a hawk while she was in her bed. It worked well. No crying barely any waking.
So I'm going to keep trying put Ravebaby in her own bed. The last two nights it's only been for an hour. She tends to move around a lot and once she feels her leg hanging off the edge of her bed she wakes up and moves to our bed. Last night was hard since she fell asleep in our bed. I did let her get into a deep sleep before I picked her up and moved her. Again she was only in her bed for an hour but we'll get their.
I have to admit I like having the bed adults only even if it is just for an hour. I'm not ready to push for her to totally night wean or push her to sleep in her own bed all night but we are both taking baby steps. She is growing up so quickly.
Wednesday, April 18, 2012
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